grindtheedge

Wed, 04 Nov 2009 15:56:34 GMT

i just had the worst sleep ever.
felt sick so i put on some james dean movies and passed out at arround 9 pm and then i woke up and couldnt get back to sleep cause i was hungry and couldnt seem to get comfortable. then i ate at 5 30 am and sort of slept till 10 ish . i feel like poop

Thu, 29 Oct 2009 05:54:48 GMT

apparently ed knows where to get vegan lettermans jackets....
toronto straightedge will be in effect very soon

also my band with ed, d'arcy , core, and ryan will be thus forth called breakaway unless we find a band that was named that which could be .
if not that then direction or something else

my fingers hurt and my head is pounding

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 19:49:14 GMT

i love country music fuck you

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 19:30:14 GMT

what i did today instead of drawing

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 10:05:41 GMT

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 10:22:42 GMT

insomnia

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 07:49:22 GMT

yes beard or no beard?

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 22:09:18 GMT

riff mastah

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 06:34:02 GMT

new converge... consensus .. FUCK YEA

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 08:41:53 GMT

if only

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 20:38:46 GMT

back to the drawing table

mentally vexed

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 08:09:12 GMT

lately all i listen to is johnny cash , carrie underwood, tim mcgraw , emerson drive, austin lucas, chuck ragan, and the infamous crown of thornz.

Thu, 01 Oct 2009 07:51:18 GMT

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 06:10:48 GMT

tomorrow color snake piece , draw 2 more demons ,
wednesday draw a simple flash sheet and color demons ,
thursday color simple flash sheet,
friday 2nd interview
BAM

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 18:22:30 GMT

consensus:

do women like beards?
more specifically ginger beards?
MORE specifically pirates named gingerbeard?
more more specifically me with a beard?

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 06:21:35 GMT

damn the world, damn the pain , find a way.

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 16:53:52 GMT

unemployment cut me off

everything is not well.

i emailed my old work and asked for a job

lets hope i at least have a little luck left

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 07:54:52 GMT

brian bruno ,bailey hunter robinson, eli quinters, bert krak, nikki balls, hunter spanks, chad koeplinger.
reminder ( check these peeps out tomorrow )

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 04:14:21 GMT

i want to fly a plane into the ground
but i settle for skateboarding haha
u should see me skate nowadays
i try things i cant do and should never try
i just wanna shred my life into the ground

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 04:17:53 GMT

michael this michael that swayze this swayze that
SHUT UP

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 04:12:54 GMT

rip raybeez

dfts

what's a journal for if you cant rant

Thu, 10 Sep 2009 07:08:21 GMT

spent a few days trying a few new things ive always wanted to do
did some graffiti . visited some old greats like the airplane graveyard .
little bummed i busted my board not too long ago but stoked to get a new one and skate it as much as possible b4 the seasons out.
lately ive been taking long hard looks at my current situation and by situation i mean practically everything from what my friends are doing to what im doing to who i am . what i hold dear.
frankly its hard not too when ur in a situation like me .. i have too much free time
i live at home , getting unemployment , just really trying to work on my art and further my career that way.
i see all my friends doing all these great things and i look at what im doing and i just feel sub par
everyones in school getting degree's , getting married even friggen having kids... its wild but i yea woo live at home , doing nothing . .. makes me feel lazy but im honestly trying
i probably go to curries at least once a week to get more supplies .
sometimes i just really don't know .
i try to always be honest with my self first and foremost , try to always be true and live right by me . but sometimes i just feel afraid to push myself . i haven't had a steady relationship in forever and its embarrassing but its the honest truth . i'm useless when it comes to social situations and i honestly think thats what's holding me back alot of the time . its hard to break out when you're always tucked inside . shitty things happen and will continue to happen and i'm not depressed i'm just a little discouraged with my way of life.
almost 23 . no job . no girlfriend . everyones in school ... it'd be cool if i could go to school .
i really want to . its just i don't have the means to .
and i'm actually a little scared to go to school . its alot of money and what if i don't like the program
or cant cut it artistically . it'd be sweet if i could get another apprenticeship soon so i can feel at least a little better about my current situation . i've always felt that what other people think of me isn't really that important but i care what i think of me and i am a scared guy in his mid 20's . i try to giver but i'm sick of things blowing up in my face . maybe i lack confidence and i can attribute that to alot of different things but thats no excuse. i really need to step up and start being an independent , strong man.

if you know me you know i love this guy

Sun, 06 Sep 2009 08:00:54 GMT

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 05:27:53 GMT

Thu, 03 Sep 2009 05:11:43 GMT

got a high and tight haircut today .. i think this is gonna be my regular cut from now on